For a long time in my life, I was lonely. But then I wished upon a star and asked for some people to love me...BAD MISTAKE! That wish got a friend of mine to say he loved me...Then another friend admitted that he loved me and we began going out...Then on October 3, 09 a friend admitted that he loved me...
So now, I'm completely astonished after finding that my good friend loves me. So, I jusy simply tell him, I'm taken. He understands and tells me 'alright'. And I think that is the end of our problems...Well, I was wrong. On October 4, 09, me, one of my best girl friends, my boyfriend and the guy that had admitted he loved me the previous night are all talking and I began caring for the guy who said he loved me the previous night words more than my boyfriends words. When I realize that I know that I love my boyfriend AND the other guy.
Now I am COMPLETELY torn and I don't know what to do so I just keep it to myself. Then, I start thinking about it MORE and I start to get sad. I tell my boyfriend I couldn't be with him anymore. (This was over YouTube because we are on fall break and I suck with remembering phone numbers)I told him I couldn't be with him because if I am with a person but then I fall for another, it feels like I'm having an affair, and that would make me feel like a two-timer and then, I would be sad for a long time.
So now, here I am, in my room, typing this, with my heart aching badly. I want to be with both of them, but I can't. Well, I got my wish. I got the guy of my dreams. I got my 'Once Upon a Time' guy and I lefted him because I loved a Romeo. My heart is torn between the two so much I can't eat, I can't sleep, I don't want to even move (let alone write this)! I love them both with my heart but they both say that there is space in my heart for only one. Well you know what I say to that? I CAN MAKE SPACE! I feel so many emotions going through me, heart break, love, adoration, guilt, so many things I feel. I'm such an emotional person, I don't know what to do. I think I may go back to my boyfriend because he is putting me on SUCH a guilt trip...it hurts...Isn't this a good time for the saying "Be careful what you wish for"?
Well, I guess that's it. From now on, when I write a jornal entry I will be having a Song of the Day. So, todays song of the day (and the song I'm listening to) is Lady Antebellum - Need You Now. Thanks for reading!

~Hannah-Chan~